This week, I was 15 minutes late to an audition. The WORST.
This role was mine to lose. MINE. Smart, young Asian medical examiner - I should be able to do that in my sleep, right?
But I didn't. And I blew it.
And yes, I know I'm my own worst critic, but I also know I could have done better. If I'd been on time.
I should have known better than to be late. The easiest thing any actor can do to ensure a successful audition is show up early. Take time to get settled and get focused. I tell actors this all the time.
But whatever reason that has yet to be uncovered by a therapist, I just can't seem to walk my damned talk. And I hate myself for it. I hate the look on my friends' faces when I rush in to meet them. I hate missing the previews. I hate creating stress.
This particular audition was 23 miles away from my house. Google Maps estimated the trip would take 30 minutes. I left an hour early. It ended up taking me an hour and a half. So I was late.
But that's no excuse - traffic in Los Angeles is always awful. I should be leaving two hours early for everything. But I don't. Because I suck.
Sigh...there's that saying -
On time is late.
Late is unacceptable.
It's good advice. Don't be like me, kids. Don't be late.
(Yup, self-flagellation is still in high gear...)